Alone In The Crowd...continued (part I and II)

Just another day in this small town
And like you the skies are grey
You couldn't find yourself out there
And got lost along the way
It's such a lonely road we live on
There's no one else for miles
And the only thing of beauty around here
Is when you smile... but its been a while.

The record plays the saddest songs
A soundtrack to your years
As you stare outside the window
I see the reflection of your tears
And no one understands your sorrows
You hide it deep within
But even if you found a way
To let someone in... where would you begin?

You can't lose yourself in this make believe
You'd rather sleep than be awake
Drifting along in dreams hoping someday
These scribbled lines will be straight
So reality has long been hurting
And there's no pills for this kind of pain
I guess it's just part of life
And they say it's a game... but it's not the same.

There's no need to find the answers
To those questions in your head
You kept looking for some closure
But found confusion instead
And when the rainbows lose all their color
'Cuz the rains have washed them out
Just remember who has always been there
And who's here now... alone in the crowd.

The nights are cold and feel like winter
And memories aren’t warm enough
Your thoughts get lost within your silence
I know the emptiness can make it tough
But it’s ok to have those feelings
When you can’t help but simply cry
And some might say it gets easier
As time goes on by… but you know  that’s a lie

You can always find some sort of outlet

Since you don’t believe in needing help
Maybe someday you will come realize
That it’s not only for yourself
Emotions are so hard to control
And you thought you had it all along
Until the memories come to haunt you
Proving you were wrong… it’s hard to be strong

You often wonder if God forgot you

Or maybe he can’t hear your prayers
So you make excuses not to say’em
Sometimes life just isn’t fair
You might feel you’re going crazy
And you wanna start screaming out loud
‘Cuz while you stared at the fading rainbow
You realized you were the cloud… washing it out

But moving on is not forgetting
There’s always that place inside your heart
Where all the memories play like movies
Filled full of your favorite parts
Now, you can’t live your life running
Trying to escape all your biggest fears
So when you get lost in the crowd
And all hope disappears… I’ll still be standing here.