Wake Me When It's Over

On this summer night of August it's so clear
That we need a new adventure
to get us through the year
And I'm always thinking how it was back then
When we were always laughing...
I want it all again...
But to never let it end

Wake me when it's over
I wanna sleep through October
And the rest of winter, too
Or I'll never make it through
Give me a good reason
To stay awake through the season
The holidays are hard and way too long...
Since you've been gone

Every little scent always reminds me
Of the way we used to be
So fun, so wild and free
And it never gets as easy as it was
We were always finding places
To drive to just because...
It's not quite like it was so...

Wake me when it's over
I wanna sleep through October
And the rest of winter, too
Or I'll never make it through
Give me a good reason
To stay awake through the season
The holidays are hard and way too long...
Since you've been gone.

Thinking back, I remember you
Funny, all the things we'd do
I wish we could both do it all again
Now and then I wonder still...
I wonder if we ever will
I might have to wait until the end...
Until then...
Wake me when it's over.

Alone In The Crowd...continued (part I and II)

Just another day in this small town
And like you the skies are grey
You couldn't find yourself out there
And got lost along the way
It's such a lonely road we live on
There's no one else for miles
And the only thing of beauty around here
Is when you smile... but its been a while.

The record plays the saddest songs
A soundtrack to your years
As you stare outside the window
I see the reflection of your tears
And no one understands your sorrows
You hide it deep within
But even if you found a way
To let someone in... where would you begin?

You can't lose yourself in this make believe
You'd rather sleep than be awake
Drifting along in dreams hoping someday
These scribbled lines will be straight
So reality has long been hurting
And there's no pills for this kind of pain
I guess it's just part of life
And they say it's a game... but it's not the same.

There's no need to find the answers
To those questions in your head
You kept looking for some closure
But found confusion instead
And when the rainbows lose all their color
'Cuz the rains have washed them out
Just remember who has always been there
And who's here now... alone in the crowd.

The nights are cold and feel like winter
And memories aren’t warm enough
Your thoughts get lost within your silence
I know the emptiness can make it tough
But it’s ok to have those feelings
When you can’t help but simply cry
And some might say it gets easier
As time goes on by… but you know  that’s a lie

You can always find some sort of outlet

Since you don’t believe in needing help
Maybe someday you will come realize
That it’s not only for yourself
Emotions are so hard to control
And you thought you had it all along
Until the memories come to haunt you
Proving you were wrong… it’s hard to be strong

You often wonder if God forgot you

Or maybe he can’t hear your prayers
So you make excuses not to say’em
Sometimes life just isn’t fair
You might feel you’re going crazy
And you wanna start screaming out loud
‘Cuz while you stared at the fading rainbow
You realized you were the cloud… washing it out

But moving on is not forgetting
There’s always that place inside your heart
Where all the memories play like movies
Filled full of your favorite parts
Now, you can’t live your life running
Trying to escape all your biggest fears
So when you get lost in the crowd
And all hope disappears… I’ll still be standing here.

Still I Wonder

Drivin' down the highway
Listnin' to the road
Thinkin' 'bout tomorrow
Predicting the unknown
I've been a lot of places
But no place to call home
And so I wander and I wonder
which way I should go

The summer I go northbound
The winter I go south
Some places I return to
But always a different route
The country roads feel longer
But beautiful to me
And on I wander, still I wonder
Where I'm supposed to be

I've met a lot of people
I've made a lot of friends
And I may stop to see some
And some never again
Sometimes I may feel lonely
But not enough to cry
On I wander, now I wonder
When's my time to die

Out in Pennsylvania
Someone waits for me
But she won't starve my hunger
Of longing to be free
So she stays there waiting
And she's always on my mind
So it wanders and I wonder
What I'm trying to find

May 23

Some things are hard to remember but this... I see everyday
It flashes through my daydreams and the visions won't go away
It's strange for a mind to wander and always end up there
It must be the busiest part of a blank stare

I can see it all too clearly, it was a busy Saturday
Friends and family visited while the children went out to play
Everything seemed so perfect- a brand new place, a brand new start
The last place you would expect a broken heart

There was never a bigger moment for time to take its time
I remember thinking to myself, "Everything gonna be fine"
But the nerves, the wait and the wonder- the things we saw and heard
I can't begin to try to put in words

Of course, it's all too easy to be angry or shift blame
But we knew it wouldn't help and things would never be the same
But life goes on as always even though we can't forget
That day in May when the sun would never set

It's always hard to think about it and I tear-up when I do
It's that one defining moment between what's false and what is true
But I always find that minute of the day when I'm alone-
Remembering bits and pieces and drifting off in the unknown

Right now it still is difficult to try to understand
And it's only in the dreams we have that we can hold his hand
But I hope that someday we can see what all of this was for
I guess God needed his angel a little more.